A deluge of space
I have
A 1.6TB server
with
1.06TB of mirrored space (RAID5 and RAID1)
57G of RAID0
500GB of standalone storage
And zero idea of what to do with that space. As of now I’ve only used 400gb. Which leaves 1.2TB. Ideas?
Intropection
Maybe the best way to let go of the past is to not be a sucker for punishment by returning over and over to the memory. Criminals don’t return to the scene of the crime. Why then, should it be different for the thoughts that lurk behind those deceiving masks?
I’ve seen my initial assumptions corrected over the past few weeks. No, they _are_ high flyers, may be the people I can never hope to match up to. But still I try anyway.
My favourite word is “acquittance”, in that I can face myself in the mirror, because I’ve acquitted myself well if I did what I was supposed to do, to the best of my ability.
But the Taoist symbol inspires me too. It’s a constant reminder of the cyclical nature of life – closure and rebirth. A reminder that things never are too bleak for contemplation. Because somehow the unending horror has to end one day.
And I should probably thank my coach for giving me this phrase – don’t make excuses for yourself. Because it just shows that you’re weak inside. Because you’re ultimately responsible and accountable to yourself. But mostly because your internal monologue knows when you’re lying. And you feel like shit afterwards, because you weren’t truthful to yourself. It hurts even more when you realize that you had to make up excuses to cover for your lack in ability.
That what you do creates karma. That your actions are linked to each other, in essence a domino effect. And no matter how tenuous that connection, it still affects you somehow. Coming back to bite you in the ass.
Closure and acceptance is the final stage, I think, in moving on past memories. Achieving closure is not done through avoidance, but confrontation. Confrontation not through outright frankness, but acceptance of the way things will be.
Maturity
I look back, and I realise that I’m not too far removed from the guy who could do stupid things and say stupid crap. Shooting my mouth off without forethought. Doing things that I shouldn’t be doing.
Ah well…at least I know. And in the words of Socrates, “I know more that others because I know that I know nothing.”
Interesting sentiments.
The follies of youth
I look back on past posts and think back on my past…and I’m amused by what I did and how I thought.
But don’t we all have high hopes and limitless horizons? Crushed and tossed aside, they’re no more than memories of a sweeter childhood that has been left behind.
But in exchange I’ve gained maturity and sensibility. Lost my innocence, gained new perspectives. Older? Yes. Wiser? Maybe not. But it’s still a learning journey anyway.
I wish to thank the Academy…
Ok, not really the Academy. Just the couple of things that have helped me through the block test period.
1) My iPod. With a small “i” and a “Pod”. How can I express my gratitude, pumping out tunes at my every whim and fancy?
2) Gold90FM, and especially Brian Richmond. Well, not really Brian Richmond, just that he happens to be the on-air deejay when I listen to the radio at night.
3) My Nokia N800 for providing entertainment on the bus.
4) The makers of Gweled and Bejeweled, for making a game that I can play on the bus with my fingers.
5) Bonnie Tyler, Chicago, Air Supply and various other artists, for singing the songs on my playlist.
6) Apple Inc., who included on-the-go playlists so that I could switch songs at will.
7) The Pilot pen company, for making the G-Tec 0.4 gel pen, which lasted me the entire block test period faithfully without running out of ink or having weird ink stoppages
8 ) Texas Instruments, for coming up with the TI-84+ graphic calculator, without which I would not have known how to draw graphs
9) Lipton tea, of which I consumed two cups a day, with copious amounts of sugar.
10) SBS service no. 157, for having seats in the morning, when other services such as 74 or 852 didn’t have any seats. Ah, precious sleep.
Failure
This is for some people – you know who you are.
–
Failure does not mean I’m a failure;
It does mean I have not yet succeeded.
Failure does not mean I have accomplished nothing;
It does mean I have learned something.
Failure does not mean I have been a fool;
It does mean I had enough faith to experiment.
Failure does not mean I have disgraced;
It does mean I have dared to try.
Failure does not mean I don’t have it;
It does mean I have something to do in a different way.
Failure does not mean I am inferior;
It does mean I am not perfect.
Failure does not mean I have wasted my life;
It does mean that I have an excuse to start over.
Failure does not mean that I should give up;
It does mean that I should try harder.
Failure does not mean that I will never make it;
It does mean that I need more practice.
Failure does not mean that you have abandoned me;
It does mean that you must have a better idea
~~ Author Unknown ~~
